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Dear diary;

I am feeling very conflicted as of late with a lot of things in my life (seriously, who isn't like this? i bet i'm like the millionth person today to write a journal about his or her woes). I just can't seem to decide how I feel about anything (having a hard time not staring off into space without a smile) and last night when my phone spazzed and deleted every single message in my phone I just about lost my mind xD I had saved so many special messages on that phone not just from my boyfriend or my mom or my dad but from everyone who loves me. I liked to look at them and remember that even if I couldn't see that certain person face-to-face, I knew he or she still loved me with all their heart and that they believed in me. An example of my confliction: college is starting soon and I know I should just be so pumped but I'm not! Okay, let me clarify: I'm not depressed nor am I sad and I am certainly NOT lonesome. I feel like I'm moving forward and I can't stop time. Even if I went back it would never be enough to satisfy this strange emptiness in my heart. I just have to learn to love myself a little bit more in this time that I am in and open my heart just a little wider to the opportunities coming at me head on.

What really brought this on is the fact that the story that I have been writing since early 2009 is now being completely rewritten with major character changes (i.e. name changes, descriptions, personalities etc. etc.) and I found this song that I can't stop listening to called To Build a Home by The Cinematic Orchestra. It makes me feel like I'm not going crazy because the lyrics explain my train of thought this past month. Also, the song helped me realize what this story truly meant to me all along: It was home. It is a slow process as I change from first person perspective to third and I try to broaden the passages and write in a more mature fashion with better vocabulary and dialogue. I built this home and now it is gone because I am far too big for it anymore. It's time to grow up.

There is a house built out of stone
Wooden floors, walls and window sills
Tables and chairs worn by all of the dust
This is a place where I don't feel alone
This is a place where I feel at home

And I built a home
For you
For me

Until it disappeared
From me
From you
And now, it's time to leave and turn to dust

Out in the garden where we planted the seeds
There is a tree as old as me
Branches were sewn by the color of green
Ground had arose and passed it's knees

By the cracks of the skin I climbed to the top
I climbed the tree to see the world
When the gusts came around to blow me down
I held on as tightly as you held onto me
I held on as tightly as you held onto me

And I built a home
For you
For me

Until it disappeared
From me
From you

And now, it's time to leave and turn to dust

--The Cinematic Orchestra; "To Build a Home"

Destiny, signing out.
  • Mood: Stuck
  • Listening to: to build a home by the cinematic orchestra
  • Reading: my novel
  • Watching: criminal minds
  • Playing: mahjong
  • Eating: gummies
  • Drinking: water


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I like rain. I like storms. I like thunder. I like lightning. I like wind. I like wind chimes. I like tacky lawn decorations too. I like snow. I like ice. I like clouds. I like cloud watching too. I like rainbows. I like summer breezes. I like rivers. I like creeks too. I like nature’s hideaways. I like forest paths. I like woods. I like springy grass. I like wild flowers. I like pressing flowers. I like climbing trees. I like falling leaves. I like autumn. I like summer. I like winter. I like spring. I like balloons. I like dew. I like early mornings. I like sunrises. I like sunsets. I like stars. I like star-gazing too. I like shooting stars. I like the moon. I like 3 a.m. I like mirrors. I like hair ties. I like hair clips. I like hair bands. I like texting. I like running. I like moving. I like flying. I like traveling. I like new places. I like PARIS. I like LONDON just as much. I like drawing. I like drawing manga. I like reading. I like books. I like reading manga. I like painting. I like sketching. I like dancing. I like playing dress-up. I like singing out of tune. I like music. I like the violin. I like the piano. I like music. I like Taylor Swift. I like love songs. I like heartache songs. I like concertos. I like sonatas. I like soundtracks. I like softball. I like lacrosse. I like racquetball. I like tennis. I like video games. I like TV. I like BONES. I like FRINGE. I like CSI. I like CSI: NY more. I like LIFE. I like movies. I like SUPER 8. I like Spirited Away. I like dreams. I like magic. I like Harry Potter. I like animals. I like unicorns. I like school. I like classes. I like literature. I like math. I like science. I like chemistry too. I like lunch. I like food in general. I like pastries. I like cookies. I like mint flavored things. I like chocolate. I like white chocolate. I like cheesecake. I like cheese and crackers. I like goldfish. I like gummies. I like sour things. I like to think. I like to cook. I like new things. I like old things.. I love you.

Ta-da! Everything and more xD I like a lot of things but I love only a few things. I’m a teenager, 17, and I want be the best person I can be. Sometimes I fall short of the high expectations and can get really down. I’m a roller coaster. Some people will tell you it’s worth the ride if you get a ticket. No one has ever complained xD to my face, that is. It is just a warning upfront, okay? (:

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Hello, and welcome to #YoungWritersUnite! :la: Thank you for joining! We are currently in need of co-founders and contributors, so if you are interested, please note either myself or the founder, ~Rainbowstar11. Also, we have several gallery folders, all of which are currently set to unlimited submission. So please feel free to spam us with your writing prowess. We would also appreciate it if you could tell your friends about the group, and point us in the direction of some great writing group affiliates. All help you give is appreciated and could make a huge difference in the success of this brand new group. Thank you! :)
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